Eleven weeks today, but who’s counting? Eleven weeks until I lose control over my life, and the cancer takes over. Eleven weeks until this dratted disease will remove every feeling of control I may (or may not) have. Eleven weeks until all hell breaks loose.

But at least I now have a faint idea of what the next year will look like – assuming there are no complications. Knowing my body and my medical history, the probability of a straight run is non-existant – but onw can always hope.

My surgery is scheduled for the first week of September. At the moment no-one knows how extensive the operation(s) will be. A new MRI is scheduled for August 7th, and it will (hopefully) show whether I need a partial or full mastectomy. According to the onco, not only have the cancer cells decreased in size but it seems that they have also decreased in number.

Not that it really matters. There are a large number of lobules, lobes and ducts in the breast and as the tumour has been growing between these, the surgeons will remove as much tissue as necessary to make sure they’ve removed every single bit of cancerous cells. I would rather they remove too much than not enough. I have heard horror stories of women who have had three surgeries because the surgeons didn’t remove enough.

After the surgery, I’ll have four rounds of chemotherapy, three weeks between each round. It’s more of a precaution than anything else, and is a requisite part of the study (I won’t be needing any before surgery, since the tamoxifen/zoladex combo has been so effective). As far as I can tell it’s normal to wait 5-6 weeks after surgery before chemo starts, so I should start chemo the second week of October. Pretty much guaranteeing I will be hairless by November, I am going to freeze my tits off with no hair in December…

Radiation is next. Depending on whether they’ll send me straight from chemo (last dose just before Christmas), I should start in the beginning of January. Onco says that I should expect 4-8 weeks of radiation, depending on the success of the surgery, my response to chemo and a whole bunch of other variables. That should bring us up to February or March.

Then there’s rehab. Just as all roads supposedly lead to Rome (although I’m quite certain that more roads lead to Kroer), everyone who’s had cancer says one should go to Montebello. Now, there’s two Montebellos in Norway – one is a district in Oslo with a flimsy reputation, the other is a cancer-specific rehab centre in Lillehammer, Hedmark county, famous for the Olympics and an awesome Norwegian crime series starring Little Steven (the first season was excellent, the second fair enough; let’s just pretend that the last one was never made). That’s normally a 3-week course bringing us to May (possibly April).

In other words, in eleven weeks I will lose all control of my life until next spring. I hope that I can just hide under the covers in between battles this winter.

Oh, and in case it isn’t on your mind yet …