One of the last things I did before I got cancer was be part of a study that looked at biological predictors in memory.

I loved it! I was in an MR machine doing tests and then had a memory thingy and what I remember best was that the person doing the memory tests – remembering a set of numbers – was all “I have nothing further for you. Your memory is excellent!”

Since then I’ve been struggling with chemo brain and memory and shit what did I eat today? Did I eat at all?

Then I got an email. “Since you were part of this project we’re inviting you to a follow-up…”

So of course I said YES! I WANT TO JOIN! I WANT TO SEE WHAT BIOLOGICAL DIFFERENCES YOU’VE FOUND!

It took me about a week to find the old emails and realise that I was last tested when the tumour was tiny. It had just started growing. It was minute. It hadn’t figured out what to do yet. So basically, my last shot at this project was days before I found that tumour.

Am I massively excited to be a part of this project and get a chance to see if chemo brain is physical?

YES!!! TOTALLY!!!

And although they’re not looking at this specifically – this might be really interesting since my brain frazzled just after this.

No. I don’t think the testing gave me cancer.

Am I massively stoked for what they might find? That my brain might actually be working better than I think? Or not?

Or that they might actually find something physiological?

OMG this is going to be so much fun!!!

AND I have a new favourite album. Host: “IX”