Change of diet – from spinach to sugar

I’ve been living on the strictest no-carb diet for three months now. Luckily for me, I do live my spinach and broccoli and lettuce and cucumber, and I’ve even enjoyed my restricted diet. Loads of eggs, bacon and cheese will help brighten any diet and the lack of hot flashes has been most enjoyable. And yes, they did return as soon as I ate anything with more than a whisper of carbs.

But now that I’m on chemo and we’re killing of cells left, right and centre, I had to change my diet. Away with anti oxidants and healthy foods, now it’s all about feeding the healthy cells – and the easiest, best food for them is fast carbs. Sugar!!! Loads and loads of sugary goodness!!!

So thanks to my nutritionist friend, my docs and the Personal Binder every chemo patient gets, the last two weeks I have been gluttony personified.

Healthy eating is important. Healthy means “what your body needs”. The day after my first chemo, I needed a double latte and a gigantic muffin with huge dollops of blueberry jam, yummy banana and some healthy seeds on top.

Seriously. Gluttony is important.

Friday: two gigantic mugs of hot cocoa (made with proper chocolate) and a massive beef sandwich. Oh yes, I could feel my healthy cells loving this new diet!

Monday: these Polish caramel sticks were perfect. Beskidzkie Łakocie paluszki carmel.

 

First round of chemo – first round of side effects

You can read all you want about chemo, but every person’s experience is different so hope for the best, expect the worst, and you’ll find out what you end up with somewhere in the middle.

Most chemo meds require anti side effect meds as well. For my paclitaxel/taxotere I get dexamethasone, a synthetic corticosteroid (two doses before, four after) and one injection of Neulasta 24 hours after the chemo.

And although I’m still waiting for the side effects of my yew meds to set in – I have most certainly met those of my companion drugs.

Dexamethasone gives night sweats. Just as bad as the tamoxifen before I went off carbs. Swimming in sweat all night, waking up every hour or so, four nights of interrupted sleep. Now that autumn (and a chilly one at that) has set in, jumping between hot flashes and cold ones is not much fun – all through the day and night – and me being worried about getting an infection or a cold – not much fun.

But all things pass. Night sweats started on Tuesday evening and I got a good night’s sleep on Sunday. Thursday through Sunday gave me some pretty flat times – of the “I hope I make it to bed before I melt like an ice cube”.

Then comes Monday with slight rays of neuropathic pain in my lumbar region throughout the day. Not bad enough to knock me out, more of an annoyance. I much prefer constant pain – I can deal with that. These lightning bolts were completely different and they got worse as the day wore on.

I’m no stranger to pain. I can deal with constant pain (usually in bed with the duvet over my head) but this – this was really bad. It felt as if I had a disco ball in my lumbar that was sending out shards of painful lightning rather than fancy lights, and not only was the frequency increasing, the shards were getting longer and being sent down into my feet and up into my neck and shoulders and even got my tears going – and that’s a really bad sign. I took a couple of Celebra cos they’re the “nastiest” meds I have and figured that if this was how the next four months are going to be, I am staying under the duvet for the duration…

But the shards dulled slightly after a couple of hours, and although I was completely knackered at least I was able to sleep. No pain, no sweats, just blissful, dreamless sleep.

And Tuesday there was no disco ball.

I have to admit that I have been good and had naps most days – it’s not as if fatigue isn’t a natural part of my life – and I have been very happy that apart from these incidents, I’ve been pretty much side effect free. I have got chemo brain though (what’s new) so memory even worse than normal!

I probably jinxed it now – but we’ll see in a fortnight how things are developing…